Sunday, November 23, 2014

[[ 81 ]] Toni acting out

A delightfully charming interview:
Stephen Colbert speaking with author Toni Morrison.


During the interview, Toni mentions how she believed that everything she'd ever want to read had already been written. Then... in her late 30's, she realized she wanted something else. Something more. Her heart yearned to protest the violations that common social constructs* inflict upon the dis-empowered and unpopular. These injustices were all around her, in ways both subtle and direct.
So at the age of 39... she started writing. She started speaking out.

I think that's a fine age to re-focus the way your life is going. With the novelty of youth behind you, it's reasonable to start seeking greater satisfaction. The dreaded 'Mid-Life' crisis, so easily ridiculed by the media, is really just an easy target; an inventive way of shaming people. But what if, rather than grown men acting like schoolboys and women getting botox, this revelatory awakening in a person's life aligned with something less superficial?

It could be. Not for everyone, however -- sometimes that new sports car is indeed a cry for help. But it's also true that such changes can be a direct and intentional act of metamorphosis.  A sign that a person has figured out some things about themselves and their relationship to the world. When we realize what is needed in order to create our own fulfillment, real change feels like our only choice. We are compelled.
When done right -- you can literally see a progression by which new factors have encouraged someone's personal growth! After all, these sweeping redesigns tend to be very specific: they are not born from impulse ... but the results of well-examined plans and intent.
Some, which eventually reveal themselves to have been the right choice all along.

If you're going to be worth a damn in this life, you'll need to embrace the notion of releasing yourself. Your realized self. The one who takes risks, or promotes ideas which challenge traditions. If you're doing those things solely to thwart other people, likely you're misguided and need to reassess your spiteful designs. But --- if you're promoting positive, loving and sustainable choices...  and the realities of your actions are completing you, you're growing.

                                                 

Of course, not everyone will understand. Some people have an investment in the status quo. They have been conditioned to remain politely caged. Expect them to hiss at you for revealing the uncomfortable seating which comes with conformity. Somewhere along their journey, they traded any need to explore all possible versions of the Truth for the safeness of comfort.

But any mind which questions the moorings of such motives soon realizes that safety was always an illusion.
Thus, even quiet acts of desperation and nobility are fine ways to break the paradigm. You can jam the cogs of the machine with something it absolutely detests - unregulated satisfaction and spontaneous acts of Love and Defiance. When people choose to stop enforcing negativity, amazing things can happen!
And when we emancipate our regulated life, creating ourselves anew through sheer will of intelligent choice?

We push back. We break chains.
We forge a future of unrestrained possibilities, replete with Hope!

When Toni Morrison responds to Stephen's playful questions .... she's acting out
Such confident and graceful repose! So eloquent ~ her revolution.

-C.D.

*In this instance, Toni is speaking of racism - but the thought can be applied to many things. This world is full of spears and cages - all struggling to keep everyone in place, when Love has always been the better design. 





Sunday, November 9, 2014

[[ 80 ]] Shut Up Conspiracy Theorists

There is an expression, 
'The simplest answer is often the correct one...but I’ve rarely found that to be true. 

Instead, it would seem that the simplest answers are only correct to the simplest minds – 
- or to those who have very simple motives and needs. - C. D. 


Monday, October 13, 2014

[[ 79 ]] For Rich

My friend Rich died two weeks ago.
Well...  we think he committed suicide.  I won't say how. It doesn't matter.
What matters is that my friend is gone, and even though time and circumstance put space between us.... he was my boy -
                     and i miss him.

I think Rich was about 22... 23 when we met. We both worked for the same company. Both loved videogames and had a penchant for music, so ... in that way guys come together easy - dude and I hit it off.
And he was cool: always friendly and wanting to be helpful. But Rich was dealing with some issues... drugs, failed relationships...  plus, he had a general wariness of people. He only trusted me because I tend to reach out to lost sheep. I'm one too.

We were doing good. After some time, I was helping him to kick the bad habits... saw him getting his life together. We used to roll together at lunch, and he would go on and on about whatever bullshit videogame or movie was on his mind. We loved to compare notes on stuff.
Then, he would do shit like... out of the blue ---  mention that he was thinking about killing himself.

This would launch me into the stratosphere ... I'm not one to toy with such comments or take them lightly. I was putting some serious heart into loving this dude - and always spoke to him like a big brother. Was always real with him, but tender too y'know? Making sure he knew I cared, but not being soft on him about it. Life is hard enough for everybody... hard on women, hard on men... hard on the young and old.
Entropy is a fact of life: to Live is to defy that knowledge and invest in the joy of Being. Now.   
Rich was a young guy with a good head on his shoulders, but he had some serious problems. Hidden aches.
Some that weren't visible, unless you knew what to ask, and where to look.
Even so - he could empathize with others going through their struggles, and I - empathized with him.
Tried to be a friend and role model. We were making progress.

Then, along came this girl.
She was beautiful. Amazing. Short and smart... quick witted.  
And she had a good job.... a pharmacist. 
She and Rich hit it off... and everything seemed like it was going to be okay! He and I stopped hanging out as much, but it was cool - because this was the freedom I wanted for him! He spent his time with her, they moved in together... started doing the things that boyfriends and girlfriends do. Camping and hiking together. Just this cute little suburban couple. It looked like everything was going to be just fine.
Rich wasn't lost anymore - and he didn't need more 'mentoring'; the best conclusion this story could have.

So we stopped hanging out.

How was I to know that she kept a big fishbowl full of narcotic drugs on the kitchen table?
Girl was dealing. 
She got him hooked on real stuff -- not the cheap shit kids get from a buddy, but 'white collar' drugs.
Stuff that people use for psychiatric treatment. He told me about it one day and I kinda raged at him, but he couldn't hear me anymore. The drugs had him. His new lifestyle had him. Or maybe...  his old pains just found a new and improved co-dependence.
Add that now he was getting laid on the regular by this cute girl and --- well...shit man, the math is easy.
Hot chicks can ruin a friendship in a heartbeat. Hot girls with money and an endless supply of drugs
... my friendship with him didn't stand a chance.

He started looking beat down. Of course he did. Bad things never heal you. 
And of course - offuckingCOURSE the girl broke up with him. This was followed by more math: he spiraled out of control, lost the job, didn't have any money or heart. A walking shadow, always at home, laid up - sky high and out of it. We didn't see each other much. One of the last times we did, we were driving together and I was trying to get him to open up. I was hoping to cheer him up, so I could see if there was any chance to turn things around...  -- and right after I mentioned what a beautiful Spring day it was, Rich said that the clouds made him want to kill himself.
To anyone else - that's just a weird, bad joke. But to me and Rich, it represented a setback from dozens of long, hard talks... and at that moment -- I just flipped out on him.
" I'm SO fucking tired of your sad-sack, Eeyore-ass ways man!  You're NEVER gonna get up if you're always so ready to lay down! I'm wasting my time with you... and clearly, you don't give a shit about respecting me if you're just gonna drop THAT WORD like you're talking about a fucking hamburger." -- I said. Something like that. Fuck.. I don't know.
I was angry and it was years ago.

You ever watch somebody kill themselves in slow motion?  
You care. You really do. But a part of you is really, really angry with them.
That day, I was furious.
In my world, when a girl breaks up with you - you get it together. Show her what she's missing! Keep your self respect and step up your game..   but Rich broke down. He *always* broke down.
And that day - I broke down too.

We stopped hanging out after that.

The next time I heard from Rich was just several months ago.
2013. It has been .. what - seven, eight years? Probably more.

In that time, he had moved to a different state and started over. He was living with his brother now, the only other person that Rich felt he could rely on. But things were looking up! He reached out to me to say that life had gotten better!  He was upbeat, and contacted me to say 'thanks' about those times before.
Dude was working things out:  he had a new job, had a nice place, and had started working out at the gym. Cool.
Sometimes it just takes a fresh start and a little maturity to steer a person right.
He sounded happy, I was really happy for him --- no one wanted to revisit that last argument. Guys are like that. No one needs to 'win' the fight - fuck the scoreboard --  just make it right
We're not interested in holding grudges and bullshit angst...  especially if we're friends.

Rich and I were good for a while. Then, another girl. Another break-up. Rich lost and got another job. Then, another girl. This cycle would continue... and each time, he would lose more of himself. 

Sometimes he'd talk to me about it --- but it was through work email? So we just kept it light for the most part and stuck to sharing music instead. He seemed to be handling it --- roughly.... poorly, to be sure. But some people are just dramatic that way. So I didn't suspect anything was too messed up.
Just another day.
I had seen all this before: the pattern of him being happy, getting better - then finding out that he'd invested in things that weren't going to work out.  He'd drop out for a while and go silent.  Tapped.
Then a few weeks  later, a flurry of new music would appear on his YouTube page -- and it was Spring again. Warm.

A lot of the music he liked was dark. Industrial and forlorn. But... when Rich was upbeat - he also had a surprising knack for really soft, bubblegum sweet chillwave. A genre also known as 'glo-fi ...characterized by slow, beautiful melodies and interesting, thematic beats. The kind of music you drive to, or sit and listen to while watching planes come and go. Music for being in love.  Rika and I included one of the songs he shared with us on your Honeymoon soundtrack. 
So yeah... when he wasn't fucked up, Rich wanted the same things we all want. 
To be accepted. To have a little peace in his life.  And to be loved by someone that loved him back. 

Still, I guess in my mind... I always knew that he was fighting just to breathe? I knew that he wasn't enjoying life, didn't have the resilient optimism which is inherent in the way I see things. He didn't show it - -never really reached out and gave any indication that he was drowning. Or that this time it was for real.
He just grew still and quiet while the water rose.

I guess it took him a while to work up the courage. Or pull down the sorrow.
Either way.... his brother found him, slumped over the desk in front of his pc. Rich released himself from the struggle. Just too tired of fighting to carry on, I guess.
We think maybe he left a message, hastily typed in Note on his computer.
But .. in his state of mind, Rich didn't think to save it.
       The pc was connected to the wall outlet.
              When the coroner came, they flipped the light switch off, and just like that...

                               .... you lose someone f o   r    e       v         e              r      ~       *. 



Here's to my friend. A guy who was always fighting a battle he could never seem to win.
Thank you for sharing the times with me when you almost did. 

I love you and I miss you, man.
And I'm sorry. 

-  Charles Dashing.


It's alright bro...  I'll wait with you 'til they come to let you go...



Thursday, September 25, 2014

[[ 78 ]] ...Please Be Patient With Me (Giving up on God)



You know what religious song I've always liked?   
That song… Please Be Patient With Me (God is not through we me yet). 

It’s a great song. I used to sing it in choir when my dad took my brother and I to church as kids. These days, my dad is a Deist and my own perspectives on religion are reason-based. My current position is that of an Atheist. Even so, I can still appreciate the beauty (and groove!) of a good hymn. And I still remember how that song made me feel.

It’s a shame that this type of appreciation does nothing to redeem me in the eyes of some Christians. Because I disagree with them regarding a subject which is elusive and complicated at best, they prefer to resort to any number of unpleasant assumptions about my entire person. What I’d wanted: reasonable discourse, good humor and conversation over a meal. That's not threatening, nor an invitation to a ‘Den of Iniquity’. In fact, it's not much of a request at all. If a person is willing to hear your viewpoints and even be ministered to, how's that something to avoid?  
As long as they showed me the same regard, that would have been fine.  

But that’s not what I’ve experienced… and it leaves me a little hurt and perplexed.  
Why wouldn’t any Believer default to the idea that God is simply ‘not through with me yet?

Please Be Patient with me is a relevant term. It very clearly indicates a disposition that all Christians are to champion – patience and tolerance - as espoused in the New Testament.
Patience is neither the condonement of a conduct, nor the willingness to turn a blind eye to that which is wrong.  Instead, it demonstrates an understanding of Faith, as expressed through Time and Consequence. Much like soft and cool waters can erode even the hardest stone over years of contact, a patient and direct approach can change people’s minds, their behavior and inevitably - - their lives.

I was ready to listen.

Yet time and time again, my adventures as a responsible, sentient being bring me into contact with others who are quick to jump to derision and conflict, when understanding and calmness would have not only been the better path – but would have provided a forum by which they might have actually affected the changes they desire.
Or ….maybe not?   
Granted, fair play is in effect: maybe if they saw how I live my life and how there is balance and love in the way I conduct myself, perhaps it is they who would have been changed? Maybe.
Maybe that’s what compels such a vehement and unloving rigidity from a Believer. 
Fear of Change. Fear of Irrelevance. Fear of Being Proven Wrong.

Whatever it is… it isn’t patience. It isn’t any kind of love that an intact adult would want. And the trail of sorrow and lost opportunity left in its wake speaks volumes about what a person *actually* contributes vs. the dogma they talk and talk and talk about.

Maybe God is not through with me, but….. after all this, I think I’m through with him.    


Meanwhile -
… I wonder how much patience he will show for those who interpret his patience and immeasurable love through acts of rejection, anger and immediate separation?


Suffer the little children.

-C.D.


Rika has written an AMAZING and FIERCE article about the parental behavior demonstrated by these Christians. She saw the video above and was furious about it! Rightly so.
Please read her article, which is far superior to my childish, impetuous mewling! 
You can find her article here.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

[[ 77 ]] Summer Livin'

Summer Livin'.

Haven't posted lately, or even been online much for that matter --- it's Summer.
This year's season has been mild, with plenty of rain and cool breezes... which suits me just fine!

Granted, life isn't perfect; there will always be outsiders who can't accept your happiness or find tolerance with your choices in life. But those personalities only minimize themselves further when the people you live with are solid, loving, attuned and happy, right?
I am fortunate to have such an arrangement. I hope you do too - and if you do, soldier on.
All living things deserve to experience joy ~~~* 

As for me, I'll get back to all the politics and life lesson stuff in a little bit, but really... I think we all hear enough of that on the daily news? There is certainly a time to speak out and stand up, but not all of life is meant to be some sort of battlefield. Nah... return to that frustration when it's due, sure... but when the sun is bright and the breeze is calling your name - GO!   Embrace Being, people!
Go get some of that joie de vivre!!   

That's where I'm at. That's what I'm doing.
Being nice to everyone I can, and appreciating the gift of Now.
So if the sign on the door says Gone Fishin' or Gone Dancin' - well, the end result is the same: I'm out having fun!  See you out there!

- C.D.

Alright DJ -- - queue the music!    
 


Sunday, July 6, 2014

[[ 76 ]] The Proud Whopper

 http://www.bk.com/

Social oppression creates financial opportunity. Any historically oppressed group you might think of - women, immigrants, Africans, the poor - is accompanied by crafty profiteers who benefit from the situation. While these opportunities are generally expressed in negative ways, some examples can be positive, depending upon your stance.

Even so... it still smacks of opportunism. 
Should we be surprised then when modern day corporations stick their hand in the till? Probably not. 

But I can't blame them; commercials reflect what the general population wants to consume. These corporations have sensed the change in the social climate and are responding. That's good business.  
Of course, not everyone will agree. As with the interracial Cheerios commercial from a year ago, this new Burger King ad has raised some controversy. 

Which was the point. 
( *Well, at least - one of the points$$$.)  

The rest of this article is for those who get upset by things like this. 

Hey ... listen  - - 
Don't like the 'Pride Whopper'?  Want to stop marketing campaigns like this?  
It's easy to do!

Stop trying to devalue the choices of people who don't share your same preferences
Remember, Burger King just created a burger - but it's you who created the market for it. 

Of course, you could stomp your foot and tell everyone that the traditional hamburger is the only acceptable one - and by eating any other variation, they're asking for food poisoning. You could claim that this great country was created on the notion of one patty, one piece of cheese - and that all other combinations are abominations.
You could lobby your local representatives to see to it that double cheeseburgers and veggie burgers are eliminated from the menu altogether, as they just 'ain't right'.  
Make the Big Mac and the Whopper illegal. 
Why not? 

But ....would you really be changing people's tastes? Would it truly make anyone healthier, or save America? Probably not. 

Choosing what we eat is no different than what we say, how we live or who and what we love. Whether you eat a cheeseburger every day, or have decided to become a Vegan - you made that decisionYou chose to Have It Your Way
Allowing someone else to do the same isn't a 'special right' - just an equal one. As long as you resist others having access to the same things you enjoy, expect to see marketing which makes your stomach hurt.

- C.D. 


MORE FOOD FOR THOUGHT: 

Is this shirt offensive? 


....what about these hats?

.... then how about this shirt? 
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*Yes.... it's real.  Purchase it here: http://www.shelflifeclothing.com/shirtpages/caucasians.html

What's the big deal?  
What's the worst that could happen when you devalue whole groups of other humans?
Well...




  
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If you're not an opportunist who advocates the benefits of oppression,
....then STOP CASUALLY SUPPORTING SHIT THAT INEVITABLY  ENDS LIKE THIS


Thursday, June 12, 2014

[[ 75 ]] Easy Does It

Just some videos that make me smile...


We Built this Kitty on Rock n' Roll

Scrapomatic - Louisiana Anna

Will you go to prom with me

I really love this last one!
Sure - it's campy... and commercial, but the message is one I can identify with.

Alright... that's it for now. Hope you enjoyed!  
Something more, later...
- C.D.
MEMES!






Friday, May 30, 2014

[[ 74 ]] INSTRUCTION MANUAL FOR LIFE

Some of the most virtuous and pious aspects of Love are oft demonstrated in the forms of compassion and empathy... one’s ability to feel the pain of others, to see life from the perspective of another. 

- C. D. 

Please enlarge the video to enjoy this powerful little story.... 



Qualia Soup and Theramin Trees

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

[[ 73 ]] The Bowmanship of an Open Mind

* This post is related to the prior article, Critically Thinking of You. *  

[[ 73 ]]  The Bowmanship of an Open Mind


So then...

The ability to critically process information opens one to the possibility of Better Understanding. Doesn't mean that one will necessarily choose to examine all sides, no --  unfortunately ego and personality can still poison that. But if one at least embraces a motive to employ the best reasoning, that person is not trapped by their own prejudices forever. Through their own internal process and a desire for Truth ... they can still reach a conclusion which is completely free of their need for a particular outcome of perspective.

But ...what if they choose not to? What if they've determined that they already have enough facts, so they close the door to any future consideration (or even genuine discussion!) of ideas which they don't already carry?
If the truth were an archery target, how likely is it that...
        --- a person who will not allow for any adjustments is hitting the center?   


As the video implies, the person who is throwing out ideas is not necessarily wrong -- it's just that, by not asking questions, they're more likely to be wrong. By not exploring and attempting to better assess the truth of a thing, one is simply unable to do more than hurl clumsy concepts at it, in hopes that something sticks.

But that isn't love. It isn't righteous. It cannot be justice and it's truly a deficient approach for anyone who claims to seek Truth as a way of life! In fact, it's treacherous to the truth, because it is infused with human frailties, not any act of divine instruction or tenant of patience.

Questions and Consideration simply aren't a threat to the Truth.

In fact, by asking questions and even after considering all possibilities... one could still arrive at the exact same initial conclusion one held before. There's nothing which says that having MORE data will affect your findings one way or another, only that it will help to correlate your conclusion with Reality.
And that reality should be nothing less than: The Actuality which exists independent of your will to perceive it.

This is the state we refer to as Having an Open Mind. It has nothing to do with any specific regard, only the manner in which one approaches a conclusion which is as valid as possible. A good, valid conclusion is far more likely to be Reasonable, Just, Righteous and even Divine .. if that's what compels you.

-C.D.

Part 3 Coming Soon...



Sunday, April 20, 2014

[[ 72 ]] Critically Thinking of You

bloggers who aspire to be thought leaders need to apply critical thinking to their writing
I'm going to go out on a limb here - 
              --- and just assume that you don't generally define yourself as stupid.

Would you say that you're completely ignorant?  No?  
Dumb as a sock full of nails?  Nope?  

Wonderful!   You may proceed. 

(If the answer to either of those questions was yes, that's alright too. Our world is diverse.
Here's something to entertain you: ????? 

Forgive me friends, I was being humorous with the subject - but truly, the essence of Critical Thinking is of great importance to me. 

The National Council for Excellence in Critical Thinking (a non-profit organization based in Canada) defines critical thinking as "the intellectually disciplined process of actively and skillfully conceptualizing, applying, analyzing, synthesizing, and/or evaluating information gathered from, or generated by, observation, experience, reflection, reasoning, or communication, as a guide to belief and action." 

Sounds complicated, doesn't it? 

But Critical Thinking isn't rocket science. It's something we've all done since the time we were infants! The ability to competently evaluate the things we deal with in our daily lives is the result of demonstrable analysis and subsequent testing, even if only on a functional level. Even when we cannot discern how a thing works, we can still properly contemplate its use and value. If we fail at this however, not only are we wrong, but there may be consequences. So it's common for successful and genuine beings to process information analytically, in hopes that they are increasingly correct, functional, and capable. 

No one wants to be thought of as a lazy, irresponsible, dimwit - - but alas, that title fits some of us too well. But why and how would anyone allow themselves to become that way, when there can be such pronounced disadvantages?  Is this the result of poor role models? Were we 'sabotaged' by the system, or along our journey - did we fail to appreciate the benefits of critical thinking? 

My next few posts will center around this theme - often, as it is applied to Theism. 
That however, is just the particular tone of these videos.... but not my sole point. In the end, each individual is entitled to their personal beliefs and chosen path in life. 
How a person arrives at those conclusions however, fascinates me. 
Often, it tells a greater story. 

Let's discuss. 
- C.D. 

Please visit Rika's blog, which features a loosely related post: Rika's Choice

* Photo Credit: Picture @ top of page is from this source and an excellent article . 



Wednesday, April 2, 2014

[[ 71 ]] HAPPY

Well...  it looks like Spring is here. Finally! 

How are you?  ...  I'm good!

Life's been pretty busy, but I'm feeling upbeat and ready for it! The fact that things are going so well at home only helps with this. And over the past few months, the light-footed meetings with my parents have been warm. Receptive. 
The hug my father gave me when last we saw one another is still with me now.
And Mom is demonstrating the type of love she's never really shown. While it's not perfect- it's better. It's like she's connecting to something I've never seen from her before. At moments - it's beautiful. And for these gifts, even if they may not last -- 
I hope we are each left more whole. 
Happy.

The other day Mom and I talked about the elation which prompts people to burst into dancing. Y'know - those people who are so comfortable with themselves that when a moment hits, they can just dance anywhere? 
Unfortunately... I'm not one of them. =/
The years, even when gracious...  can tighten you up. As adults, we get locked into patterns of ourselves. 
Behaviors which can weigh down your dancing feet for all the best, most responsible reasons.
The tensions of life can make you seem stiff in those moments when you should be supple and light. Yet music is one of the easiest paths to feeling lighthearted again. Something in our psychology is compelled to connect when a potent song is heard, and we cannot help but express our emotions in response. Our bodies become instruments of that emotion. Rather it be singing along, tapping a foot or drumming our fingers - Humans share this excellent ability to express our feelings through vibrant physical movement
Thus, dance as a social communication calls upon our ancestral moorings. It brings us together, spanning the barriers of age, race and belief, uniting us as beings. Infusing us with the mood of the melody.  

Mom agreed. She loves to garden, so when the weather is nice, she takes her stereo and heads out to the patio. When the music takes her over, she lets go and dances as she works ... without a care that the neighbors will see.
And that's the beauty of it: - people enjoy seeing another human being express joy.   
Anyone with a positive disposition ADORES witnessing that type of thing!  

While there will always be the frumpy, the grumpy and the Nasty Negative Ned's - - 
                 ---- the rest of us love to see others having a good time!  
We feel compersion.
And when we can, we join in! 


When you love others, you want to share your joy with them. I know this, yet in those moments - I find that my body feels clunky, tight with anxiety instead of release. It's so lame! 
The people who share their daily happiness with me are totally worth every scrap of silly adult dignity I would cling to! My displays of appreciation needn't be 'moderate' or 'casually comfortable'  - - like I'm at the office... no!  I'd rather they have every opportunity to see how EXCITED I am to have them in my life!  I want to give my all - in hopes that the time they spend with me enriches their lives as they do, mine!   

*Side NoteHey People-  never tie yourself to a person who doesn't want to give you that type of love.    -C.D.

So yeah... like the song in that video says... I want my joy to be unstoppable.
My partners deserve that! After all, I *really* like them!!  And you know what?  
I deserve it too. I want to embrace that - not in a way which celebrates my ego - but in a way which allows me to leave it behind. 

Being comfortable dancing in front of the ones I love would be a fine start. 

Mom agreed. She said " ... my advice is, go down into your family room, put on some music with a good beat and get to it.  It beats being on an exercise machine any way you look at it.".

And she's right. If you're not expressing your joy dynamically -- you're holding back from the people who love you. Those who most adore and deserve your joy. 


Thanks Mom.  I'm going to do it! 

- C.D. 
PS: Last night I revealed this yearning to the girls, letting them hear just how I wish to expand my joy for them. 
Marie immediately shared that she's wanted to take swing dance lessons with me for the longest time. Without hesitation, I apologized for my lack of insight and told her to sign us up. She jumped right into my arms and kissed me! 
Myyyyyeeaaaaah!! ~ *   

And Rika?...  she smiled and coo'd in my ear, saying our living room will do just fine...  


Happy.  < ---hidden link


Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Sunday, March 2, 2014

[[ 69 ]] SEEDS WILL SPROUT



Things are working out
Slowly. Bit by bit.  It's like this winter thaw
It lingers, but it loses
And the coming of warmth reveals itself to be what it always was - inevitable.

With change comes hope. Opportunities for Good Things. People and families coming together to heal and laugh and create joy. The cold may freeze a thinning heart, but the robust find gardens. They are compelled to work the soil and invest in a future which sustains the heat of living breath.
For this is life. This is what the Living do... if they truly wish to live.

The past is just another season. It couldn't stay.
And today, I'm feeling a little better about my hopes for
tomorrow.
Seeds will sprout and seek the cracks in pavement. 

- C.D.


                               

                             

Thursday, February 27, 2014

[[ 68 ]] MAYBE IN MY LIFETIME.

[[ 68 ]] MAYBE IN MY LIFETIME.

News Link:
Texas ban on gay marriage ruled unconstitutional.                                                                    
The world is changing.
And not all of those changes are bad. Anyone that tells you otherwise isn’t being honest. 
Regarding the issue of marriage rights, those whose freedoms were being unfairly repressed are finally seeing some justice. It’s about time. 

I hope that one day, the two women I love can be equally respected, protected and acknowledged as my family. The successful union of our poly-triad has brought us such joy over the past three years, and deserves the same rights by law as a traditional marriage. 
Yet the validity and commitment of our relationship isn't recognized, due to the fears held by other people. 

Life is hard enough. There are plenty of *actual* problems in the world.
Regulating love between healthy, consensual adults is like regulating sunshine to Group B based upon the personal preferences of Group A. It will never be fair, no matter how much moralistic spin people apply in their misguided attempts to control others.  
Call it what it truly is: self-serving bigotry.

Regarding multi-partner relationships: 

Check the Constitution ... the right to marry is granted to all U.S. Citizens of legal age and sound mind. Meanwhile, courts are reconsidering previous interpretations of the Constitution in regards to polygamy. Read more about that, here.

Check the history books...  human beings have engaged in multi-partner marriages since the age of recorded history. This isn't a sign of the End of Days - or Armageddon is a few thousand years behind schedule.  So please... drop that nonsense.

Check your Bibles if you must:  there's not a word in there condemning polygamy. 
In fact... quite the opposite.  See for yourself.

Years ago, churches were all fussed up about interfaith marriages. And let us not forget how vicious many Americans were, clutching Bibles as they railed against interracial coupling. Now the Religious Right has lost the war against "The Gays".  I see no reason why they wouldn't rally against plural marriages next. They have a knack for finding socially disenfranchised groups who apparently need their special gift of 'love and denouncement'. 
The rest of the country however... is slowly but surely showing a different inclination.  

- a knack toward tolerance. 
Perhaps even acceptance of others who differ from ourselves. 

                        

So each time news like this comes out...and another state decides to honor the Constitution, we celebrate!     

My family and I are hopeful that our loving and positive life choices will no longer render us 'outlaws'. And we're not alone.   
Every day, more poly-people are coming out publicly... all over the nation. Poly families are showing up on Oprah, in magazines, and also present in a few recently released movies.  
With each announcement like the one in the link above, 
     ...with each step forward toward Fairness and Equality for All
              .....our hope that one day everyone will just love one another responsibly  
                      ~ grows. 

-C.D.


   “The point for me is to create relationships based on deeper and more real notions of trust. So that love becomes defined not by sexual exclusivity, but by actual respect, concern, commitment to act with kind intentions, accountability for our actions, and a desire for mutual growth.” 
― Dean Spade