Well... it looks like Spring is here. Finally!
How are you? ... I'm good!
Life's been pretty busy, but I'm feeling upbeat and ready for it! The fact that things are going so well at home only helps with this. And over the past few months, the light-footed meetings with my parents have been warm. Receptive.
The hug my father gave me when last we saw one another is still with me now.
And Mom is demonstrating the type of love she's never really shown. While it's not perfect- it's better. It's like she's connecting to something I've never seen from her before. At moments - it's beautiful. And for these gifts, even if they may not last --
I hope we are each left more whole.
Happy.
The other day Mom and I talked about the elation which prompts people to burst into dancing. Y'know - those people who are so comfortable with themselves that when a moment hits, they can just dance anywhere?
Unfortunately... I'm not one of them. =/
The years, even when gracious... can tighten you up. As adults, we get locked into patterns of ourselves.
Behaviors which can weigh down your dancing feet for all the best, most responsible reasons.
The tensions of life can make you seem stiff in those moments when you should be supple and light. Yet music is one of the easiest paths to feeling lighthearted again. Something in our psychology is compelled to connect when a potent song is heard, and we cannot help but express our emotions in response. Our bodies become instruments of that emotion. Rather it be singing along, tapping a foot or drumming our fingers - Humans share this excellent ability to express our feelings through vibrant physical movement.
Thus, dance as a social communication calls upon our ancestral moorings. It brings us together, spanning the barriers of age, race and belief, uniting us as beings. Infusing us with the mood of the melody.
Mom agreed. She loves to garden, so when the weather is nice, she takes her stereo and heads out to the patio. When the music takes her over, she lets go and dances as she works ... without a care that the neighbors will see.
And that's the beauty of it: - people enjoy seeing another human being express joy.
Anyone with a positive disposition ADORES witnessing that type of thing!
While there will always be the frumpy, the grumpy and the Nasty Negative Ned's - -
---- the rest of us love to see others having a good time!
We feel compersion.
And when we can, we join in!
When you love others, you want to share your joy with them. I know this, yet in those moments - I find that my body feels clunky, tight with anxiety instead of release. It's so lame!
The people who share their daily happiness with me are totally worth every scrap of silly adult dignity I would cling to! My displays of appreciation needn't be 'moderate' or 'casually comfortable' - - like I'm at the office... no! I'd rather they have every opportunity to see how EXCITED I am to have them in my life! I want to give my all - in hopes that the time they spend with me enriches their lives as they do, mine!
*Side Note: Hey People- never tie yourself to a person who doesn't want to give you that type of love. -C.D.
So yeah... like the song in that video says... I want my joy to be unstoppable.
My partners deserve that! After all, I *really* like them!! And you know what?
I deserve it too. I want to embrace that - not in a way which celebrates my ego - but in a way which allows me to leave it behind.
Being comfortable dancing in front of the ones I love would be a fine start.
Mom agreed. She said " ... my advice is, go down into your family room, put on some music with a good beat and get to it. It beats being on an exercise machine any way you look at it.".
And she's right. If you're not expressing your joy dynamically -- you're holding back from the people who love you. Those who most adore and deserve your joy.
Thanks Mom. I'm going to do it!
- C.D.
PS: Last night I revealed this yearning to the girls, letting them hear just how I wish to expand my joy for them.
Marie immediately shared that she's wanted to take swing dance lessons with me for the longest time. Without hesitation, I apologized for my lack of insight and told her to sign us up. She jumped right into my arms and kissed me!
Myyyyyeeaaaaah!! ~ *
And Rika?... she smiled and coo'd in my ear, saying our living room will do just fine...
Happy. < ---hidden link
How are you? ... I'm good!
Life's been pretty busy, but I'm feeling upbeat and ready for it! The fact that things are going so well at home only helps with this. And over the past few months, the light-footed meetings with my parents have been warm. Receptive.
The hug my father gave me when last we saw one another is still with me now.
And Mom is demonstrating the type of love she's never really shown. While it's not perfect- it's better. It's like she's connecting to something I've never seen from her before. At moments - it's beautiful. And for these gifts, even if they may not last --
I hope we are each left more whole.
The other day Mom and I talked about the elation which prompts people to burst into dancing. Y'know - those people who are so comfortable with themselves that when a moment hits, they can just dance anywhere?
Unfortunately... I'm not one of them. =/
The years, even when gracious... can tighten you up. As adults, we get locked into patterns of ourselves.
Behaviors which can weigh down your dancing feet for all the best, most responsible reasons.
The tensions of life can make you seem stiff in those moments when you should be supple and light. Yet music is one of the easiest paths to feeling lighthearted again. Something in our psychology is compelled to connect when a potent song is heard, and we cannot help but express our emotions in response. Our bodies become instruments of that emotion. Rather it be singing along, tapping a foot or drumming our fingers - Humans share this excellent ability to express our feelings through vibrant physical movement.
Thus, dance as a social communication calls upon our ancestral moorings. It brings us together, spanning the barriers of age, race and belief, uniting us as beings. Infusing us with the mood of the melody.
Mom agreed. She loves to garden, so when the weather is nice, she takes her stereo and heads out to the patio. When the music takes her over, she lets go and dances as she works ... without a care that the neighbors will see.
And that's the beauty of it: - people enjoy seeing another human being express joy.
Anyone with a positive disposition ADORES witnessing that type of thing!
While there will always be the frumpy, the grumpy and the Nasty Negative Ned's - -
---- the rest of us love to see others having a good time!
We feel compersion.
And when we can, we join in!
When you love others, you want to share your joy with them. I know this, yet in those moments - I find that my body feels clunky, tight with anxiety instead of release. It's so lame!
The people who share their daily happiness with me are totally worth every scrap of silly adult dignity I would cling to! My displays of appreciation needn't be 'moderate' or 'casually comfortable' - - like I'm at the office... no! I'd rather they have every opportunity to see how EXCITED I am to have them in my life! I want to give my all - in hopes that the time they spend with me enriches their lives as they do, mine!
*Side Note: Hey People- never tie yourself to a person who doesn't want to give you that type of love. -C.D.
So yeah... like the song in that video says... I want my joy to be unstoppable.
My partners deserve that! After all, I *really* like them!! And you know what?
I deserve it too. I want to embrace that - not in a way which celebrates my ego - but in a way which allows me to leave it behind.
Being comfortable dancing in front of the ones I love would be a fine start.
Mom agreed. She said " ... my advice is, go down into your family room, put on some music with a good beat and get to it. It beats being on an exercise machine any way you look at it.".
And she's right. If you're not expressing your joy dynamically -- you're holding back from the people who love you. Those who most adore and deserve your joy.
Thanks Mom. I'm going to do it!
- C.D.
Marie immediately shared that she's wanted to take swing dance lessons with me for the longest time. Without hesitation, I apologized for my lack of insight and told her to sign us up. She jumped right into my arms and kissed me!
Myyyyyeeaaaaah!! ~ *
And Rika?... she smiled and coo'd in my ear, saying our living room will do just fine...
Happy. < ---hidden link
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